I*m very sorry to hear about what happened with your dad!!! *HUGS* I*m glad that you seems to be moving on!!! Best wishes for you!!! My sincery condolences about your gramma!!! How are you feeling these days?
My sincere condolences to you!!! Its been not so long about your loss, I imagine how you feel, you were close to your dad as you mentioned, it must be so painful!!! Thats a pain that will never go away but thru the time, we learn how to live with the absence of that person & thinking about the good memories it help us a bit but not when the loss is too recent!!! I totally agree with your therapist, those down times we always come even over the years but everybody mourn & have a different kind of grief!!! I hope the therapy sections & medications are helping you in one way or another!!! Always try to find a way to let the emotions out when you feel sad & miss him the most!!! Hope you have many friends & family members that help you & give you the support you need to feel that you have people that you can count on & wont make you feel that you are alone!!!
Thanks for sharing your story with me & I do hope you get strengh day by day to keep going in life not having your dad physically by your side but forever in your heart!!! *HUGS*
I’m sorry for your loss, I understand how you feel. I lost my dad to pancreatic cancer a little under a year ago on December 20th.
It’s very difficult to describe the feeling. It was a mixture of things, really. Pain, Anger, Heartbreak, Abandonment – my sense of time disappeared for months. I’m in therapy and on medication. I still randomly find my drives end at the cemetery. He was the first person I ever lost and I was closer to him than anyone else in the world.
Some days I still don’t know how to survive.
Sometimes I dream about him, then when I wake up I think “I should give dad a call.” then the memories flood back as I become more awake, and it’s like losing him all over again.
My therapist said she -still- experiences that with her mother, and she lost her 20 years ago.
So I’m afraid that’s never going to end.
Grief is a strange thing. It can be gone for long periods of time then show up when you least expect it.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I haven’t lost a parent in that sense. My dad wasn’t around much when I was a kid but when he was he was abusive, he’s out of the picture now so that wasn’t much of a loss. I lost my grandmother to cancer 3 years ago. It was horrible and I’ve never fully gotten over it, I was angry and upset for a long time.